As far as I remembered, I cried to death last November 2, 2003, when my only sis died during our family reunion at the beach in my hometown..and b'cos of so much pain in my life, not to mention every detail...I've been numb to it sometimes...but at some point I admit I'm a cry baby and a very emotional person, even in just little things like when I see a sad movie, I hear a sad song, I've seen a tragedy in the news which I'm not involved neither my family, read a sad story, and at times when I read the Bible....hehehe...ang babaw ng luha ko!...and just find myself in the corner filled with tears...

Speaking 'bout love and heartbreaks...I've been alot of it before...but I didn't cry over my 1st bf when we broke up cos' I was the one who ended it up...The most painful was when the guy that whom I've loved so much was the one who broke up with me...ouch! he broke up with me through text...and his reason was he has already had a new gf, and he didn't showed up anymore...and that made me cry a river and the worst? 

...to be continued next week...so watch out for the next chapter...;)

Posting for Couple's Corner

I've said in my previous post that me and Joey have lots of differences and one is for being too jealous with other guys around...Taray! feeling ko naman ang haba ng hair ko...*wink*...But we came to a point that we decided to move our separate ways eventhough we know deep in our hearts we still love each other only that we're tired and sick of always arguing with just small things...Para kaming mga aso't pusa na parating nagbabangayan...

It was 1st of November last year, I went back home to surprise him, cos' previously I told him that I couldn't make it kasi magastos sa pamasahe from Cebu to Negros...Good thing my uncle sponsored my fare vice versa. When I arrived home in Binalbagan, I told him to come over our house for lunch with my MIL and BIL cos' t'was my granny's birthday...Even before that were together he always checks my phone messages...so ganun yung nangyari...When he arrived, the first thing he checks was not me but my phone, so I lend it to him..then he read the messages in it and saw the messages sent to me by an admirer who's a review mate at CBRC..but the guy knew that I'm already committed and had a baby...but he was so insisting to wait kasi ba naman daw hindi pa kami kasal ni Joey and he can't blame himself for his feelings for me...yet I told him that hanggang magkaibigan lang ang maibibigay ko sa kanya...and I ignored him and moved away kasi habang tumatagal, I'm feeling uncomfortable with his gestures...I told him if he wont stop what he's doin' I'll just forget that were friends at once..By reading, Joey was so mad ba't di ko raw sinabi sa kanya what was happening at Cebu...and I told him that it's difficult tellin' him sa text....that's why humanap talaga ako ng way to be home, and for us to talk about it...anyway, para wala namang issue with it kasi di ko naman inintertain yung guy...and he knows naman na sya lang yung love ko...*char!*...but he didn't want to listen to my explanation...he was so deaf for me at that moment...and I feel it was so unfair for me not to explain my side...sumama talaga yung loob ko and I told him if ganun kami always, it would be better for us to be separated...kasi wala naman siyang trust sa akin, and ganun din ako sa kanya...much better that we'll just focus with our baby...then he called our parents to come over the room and told them of what we've decided...So they agreed and supported us even though it was against them...Before I went back to Cebu I visit my sis and best friend at the cemetery..

I continue my review though it was very difficult to focus...He was still texting me but we just end up arguing that sometimes I just ignore him para di lang mag-away..but hindi pa rin siya sumuko kahit na inaaway ko siya and I told him maybe would be better for us to be just friends but he doesn't want to, he wanted us to be together again but I don't want yet...And almost a month that I didnt texted him but he was still sending me messages..Deep inside me I'm yearning for  him, but I have to stand by my decision...and made me realize that I was being unfair to him and was so stupid at that moment...I texted him and reconciled pero siya naman yung umiiwas.. and made me thought it was really over for both of us..then we never communicated since then...It was our final coaching's end and 2 days later will be my board exam...yet he didn't message me...I attended a mass and have my confession with the priest and a verse from Matthew 6:33 "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."...I told myself, maybe I was too pre-occupied with alot of things that I forgot to come to Him...and I prayed that He'll guide me to he right path and whatever His plans for me I'll gladly accept it..

I went home and just received a message from him wishing me luck for my board exam...and asked him if he could gave me a chance for a talk when I get back home in Negros...and we did...Last December 24, I went to their house para ihatid yung baby namin and we had a long conversation that he didn't want me to go home...so I stayed there and we make up...I was happy knowing that were back in each other's arm again...and he reminded me that it was our anniversary that day and kissed me so much that he didn't want to let go...He told me how much he misses me and so do I...We make promises to each other for our relationship to be better...and til now we're keeping that promise...

One thing I've learned that we should never make any decisions right away especially when we're mad cos' sometimes kahit hindi natin sinasadya, ang sinasabi na pala natin ay nakakasakit na sa iba, and we'll realize that we're stupid in the end and think many times before making any decisions...if it would be good or bad for both...Another is eat much, para maiwasan ang away, studies shows that the more you're hungry the more you'll become angry...Lastly, Boys are blinded by what they see and girls are too deaf with what they hear...sometimes as couple's we need much more understanding and patience for each other though its difficult...but we must practice it for the sake of our relationship...

My entry for CC by Mommy Liz of Rodliz Nest

Joey and Faith

Every couple existing from our ancestors up to today have differences that sometimes leads to petty quarrels...yet if unsolved or lack of understanding for each other will bring their relationship very complicated...or even some leads to annulment, divorce or separation.

Curiously, me and Joey were so dissimilar and it's a wonder why we ever been together at all. Here are some things we argue about: 1. He's very sociable, that he can sit with a complete stranger for half an hour and finds out all about his past, his present circumstances, and his plans for his future...on the other hand, I can sit infront of another person for hours without giving him more than a glance...kasi he wanted me to talk a lot or to voice out, eh I was born shy or quiet type...but I'm doing my best to be assertive most of the time now..at umiinit talaga yung ulo niya if we have confrontations and ako ay tahimik lang sa tabi...minsan kasi or I say always (toinks) sinusubukan ko yung patience niya kung hanggang saan...yet I also have reasons why I just keep quiet cos' ayokong sumabay sa init ng kanyang ulo..maybe bcos I always have alot of patience in all things most of the time...I always remembered what my MIL told us, if yung isa apoy yung isa ay dapat maging tubig para maging neutral..in every misunderstanding dapat may isang handang magpakumbaba kahit na siya or yung isa man ang tama...2. I always exhibit common sense, while my hunny is sometimes wool-headed...kasi ba naman kung anu yung kanyang pinaniniwalaan yun yung dapat masusunod kahit minsan baluktot naman...sometimes pinagbibigyan ko na lng para wala nang away. 3. He's fond of repeating questions which was answered previously...para bang ulyanin...(grrrrrrrrrrr!) I really find it annoying and hate answering it over and over again...kaya tahimik na naman ako...(toinks!hehehehe). 4. I'm fond of making surprises for him but he's too paranoid na minsan na mis-interpret niya yung ginagawa ko for him...kaya minsan sumasama yung loob ko sa kanya kasi ang slow...para bang computer na nag-dadownload pa before mka-gets...kung hindi ko lang mahal ang ungas na ito eh...(haay naku! nakakaloka). 5. We always argue if I spend most of my time infront of the laptop feeling niya kasi wala na akong time for him and our baby, and he's worried na mangyari na naman ulit yung nangyari sa akin before...(remember? its here) or sometimes b'cos he cant take his turn...(lol). 6. He's the youngest, that's why he thinks immaturely and a spoiled brat sometimes, kung anu ang gusto dapat ibibigay mo..on the other hand I'm the eldest, I am very demanding naman minsan, I am also a disciplinarian and an OC one, I hate it when our room is so messy, kasi hindi marunong magligpit ng bed pagkagising sa umaga...he's also burara sa mga gamit kung saan-saan lang nilalagay tapos nakakalimutan...7. He's so KJ and I am happy-go-lucky, especially if I were invited in a party ayaw niya akong payagan just b'cos he's afraid that I'll get drunk were infact he knows I don't drink alot or smoke...or if magkasama naman kami sa party, he's always in a hurry, para bang may hinahabol na importanteng bagay kahit na nagsisimula pa lang yung party..(sighh)...I remembered my cousin invited us to his wedding eh ayaw niya akong payagan kasi gabi na raw matatapos and ayaw naman niyang sumama kasi ma-out of place lang daw siya dun'...8. He's too jealous with my friends especially sa boys eventhough kilala naman niya and he knows that almost of my friends were boys...9. And recently we argue about my gift on his birthday, I gave him a silver necklace with a cross pendant tapos winala lang niya, di man lang niya pinahalagahan yung binigay ko at pinaghirapan ko pa namang i-save yung money ko just to buy him present...well I have nothing to do 'bout it kasi nawala na...mapapalitan lang naman yun mga material na bagay kaya I forgave him...and we're okay now...

Despite of our differences we've stuck together. It's probably b'cos we know how to work with our differences so that the strength of one makes up for the weakness of the other.

Posting for Couple's Corner by Mommy Liz of Rodliz Nest

here's the continuation from my previous post and am here to tell my story...

Our love...

Me and Joey my future husband...

I had my first love and first relationship way back in my 2nd year in college. But speaking of TRUE LOVE, I already sensed it when I'm on my first grade.

Joey and I were classmates since grade one in a public school in my hometown Binalbagan. By that jiffy, I commence fervor on him. I was thinking "If given a chance to opt one person whom I covet to partake my whole life with, it woould be him" (over diba!? I was just 7 years old and already have thoughts like that!hehehehe). Since then, I'm ceaselessly praying to God to save him for me... though I know it's impossible but I guess it's never askew to be hopeful... right?

I'm apprehensive with my prayer's that one day God will concede it and he'll discern me. We were parted during 3rd grade when he transferred to another school in his hometown and we loss contact. our paths crossed again when we entered 1st year high. and that made me jocund to seeing him again. However, we parted ways when he again transferred to another school. By chance we met at their school when my mom was invited to become the chairman of the board of judges at his school where my mom is also an alumnae.

4 years later since we last see each other...I stopped studying due to financial dearth and decided to work as a secretary and data encoder at the company where my uncle is one of the supervisor. I was at work at the moment when I receive a text message from Jom2x a colleague, but the message wasn't from Jom2x it was sent by Joey who happenly with him at an internet cafe near their school...(OMG! my heart is palpating faster...I've waited for him so long and I can't believe this is happening now....wheewww). I thanked God for granting my plea at last.

It was 24th of June 2007 when we're officially on. We both enjoy each other's company for couple of months, until one day I received a text message from him...(OUCH! he's breaking up with me). At the moment, I didn't know what to say, so I just cried my heart out and asked permission from my boss to go undertime. I went to see him at his school to know the reason why he's breaking up, but he didn't showed up and haven't given me any explaination. Then I saw him with his new girl and that's more enough seeing him happy with another woman. So I decided to respect his decision and moved away from him. Then I gave myself a chance to find someone who could help me forget and moved on easily, but it didn't worked out...for me "Falling in love is like looking at the stars, if you pick one out of the billions and stare at it long enough...all the others just fade away."

3 months after we broke up, I just found out that the love we've shared gave life to a cute little angel. So I disclosed it to him, but he disown to acknowledge our baby and I can't force him to accept it, maybe he's not ready at that moment when he heard the news and was just confused and doesn't know what to do about it or maybe b'cos he had his new relationship and that he doesn't want his current gf to knew 'bout it. After hearing that from him, I thought of getting rid of my pregnancy because I was afraid if my parents will know it, but God is so good, He was my Savior, He lead me to the right direction, and that to continue and take responsibility with it even without a father. So I continue working to save money in preparation for my delivery.

And on the 8th of May 2008, I gave birth to "Chin", my babe...8 days later, me and my best friend Aruba were heading to our house when she received a text message from Joey, he was asking for my number (what will I do? I was cold and clammy). Aruba asked me if I would allow her to give it to him... I said "yes"...(even though I'm not prepared at the moment to seeing him again). He texted me asking my permission for him to see our baby, and I allowed him. After all he's still the father of my baby and I can't take that away from him even if he had rejected me (syempre I can't deny the fact that I'm hurting still cos' I loved him so). When he and Roxan (his friend) arrived at our house, we talked after seeing our baby and he asked pardon for everything he had caused me and I forgave him. He asked me to gave him another chance to prove himself again and I did accepted him...(and that means he'll be leaving his current gf for us, but I didn't forced him to do that..it's was his personal decision). He make a vow to love no one but me and our baby. From then on, he had proved himself to us...being a loving husband and the best dad in the world.

As of now, we're living together with his family, yet we're unmarried, but we're hoping one day we'll exchange vows at the altar all in His time...we're enjoying living and loving each other, creating memories together with our baby. At the moment, he is working at the hospital at the city as an OR nurse, so we only get to bond during his day-off yet we never forget to keep in touch through texting. And I was the one looking after our baby and was happy at the moment knowing that I passed my Nurse Licensure Exam and just had my oath yesterday, so I am now a newly registered nurse. What we're planning at the moment is to have stable jobs in preparation for our future family.

"We used to think that life is a fairytale...full of magic, excitement, vivid! But that was long time ago...Now we know that there's more to life than just HAPPILY EVER AFTER...We've learned that we get wiser each day and no fairy can lead us to a happy ending...We decide, we struggle and somehow we begin to understand that we have the power to make each day better than yesterday."

One thing I've learned from experience, that we should never give up in whatever we do, in whatever we aim...in the things we've always prayed for, we should never stop LOVING and BELIEVING for great thing comes to those who were PATIENT in HIS plans for us. Everything will just happen all in God's perfect time...:)

Stay in LOVE eventhough you're HURT..

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Linking this post on this week's theme "Back in Each Others Hand" of  Couple's Corner